Struggling...

Its been long since i last posted. There were many reasons, a few tests in college, dint feel like writing any experience, and above all coz i was struggling to keep myself on track.. i fell many times, but Waheguru ji gave me his hand and pick me up..  i have been doing well academically, thats a relief . All my wishes are being fulfilled (Materialistic ones) ... But in between all that i was struggling to keep up the fight with my mind....  

I dont want to follow my mind , i want it to  follow me... Yesterday i was motivated again to fight hard while doing Sehaj path..  Kabir ji said, without subduing the mind, devotional worship is not possible... 

So the struggle to subdue it continues... I know God will help me, i just have to keep patience...   

E.N.T Test..

since i entered this college, i have been poor academically.  but today for this E.N.T test i m feeling confident...  my prep is not so good even today but, there is a confidence of some sort that Waheguru ji mere naal hai...
I hav decided to do a Sukhmani Sahib path in evening after test...  but not for any wish,  just for love...  i do care abt materialistic things like performance, but i really should not, and that wat i keep trying.....

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa , Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh

A short target achieved...

Its been a weak now , God has made me to do nitnem at amritvela.  Its a good feeling. 
And there is another target...  i m trying to control my body psychologically and emotionally, its been 5 successful days with God's grace... now i m targeting to achieve 15 days for both..   May Waheguru ji be with me  or ill fail... as i cud hav many times during last weak , but God supported me.....