Actions have reactions..

I was confused yesterday about the unrighteousness of some actions i did , i was trying to justify them,  but this morning during nitnem i dint get same satisfaction as i got yesterday, i was not able to concentrate, that made me think  that it may be due to those stupid actions i did... ill try to avoid them and see the results again....

Short Targets

Thinking of setting up small targets, like its been 3 days that i made full use of early mornings, so i m setting the target as 1 weak.. may God help me achieve it..

The Great Confusion....

Sleep...Its really a waste of time.... i have heard that saints stay attuned to the almighty even during their sleep... But i aint no saint, everything was going good, then i slept.  Anyways sleep is not the only issue i m dealing with rite now....no matter how much i control its really hard to control some feelings, some actions, i feel ashamed to describe them, it feels like they are part of life, they are  essential. i dont know, wats right wats wrong, i also feels that the main problem is attachment,  if you stay detached and your actions are not hurting anyone or yourself, and you prevent the filthy thoughts to enter your mind, then those actions should not be harmful. But really.. i dont know.. i m still confused.. i just keep asking for guidance from Guru ji, as he knows all the answers, you just have to find them, If Guru Ji loves me he will tell me all the answers i need...
Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa , Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh.

Its a beautiful morning..

Almighty lord woke me up early today, and filled my heart with love, made me sing the panj bani nitnem  with love.. it is really a beautiful morning...I m feeling desire less, except one desire, that this love in my heart keep increasing whole day, and then day by day. God please bless me that i do not forget your name even for an instant, please keep me away from all negative influences. There is nothing else i need, except unmeasurable love in my heart for you...

The battle begins....

"I m a mere puppet in hands of  God, everything i say below, i m not the doer, my beloved almighty is."

By Waheguru ji's grace, i did not waste the "amritvela" today. There is one thing that i have always felt that when you do nitnem in the morning, you stay relaxed and tension free for whole  day,,there  is  a sense of satisfaction and confidence stay with you whole day. In the morning i had decided to do a lot more than what i actually did. That way i m disappointed with myself.
My past experiences has taught me that our heart is kind of a vessel ,  filled with all kind of thoughts. when we try to fill it with love for God, this love washes away the filth that has collected in our minds.
in my mind there is so much filth, i can not expect it to be washed away in a day.
Overall   it was a good day. May Guru ji shower his mercy upon me and make me pure.

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa  , Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh.

The First Post...

It is early in the morning.. i am feeling really blessed. Just a few minutes ago i was in company of Holy Guru Granth Sahib Ji , doing a "Sehaj Paath" with his blessings. And i felt ashamed thinking of filth and corruption my mind is filled with. But then it was like God himself talking to me and guiding me and giving me assurance that he is always by my side, that motivated me once again to fight against myself.
As on the path of spirituality i have seen the heights which one can only dream of , but even then ignorance has always caused me to fell down to the depths where no one likes to go.. All this keeps on repeating itself. Then the idea about keeping a log about my journey came to my mind, and i am starting this blog, hoping it will help me stay on path of righteousness. I have also decided to share all the beautiful experiences via this blog for others as i feel that they can be inspiring to many aspirants like me...
May God Help me.
Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa , Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh..